on dieting

'Oh my God! Look at you! You look pregnant!' 

I always get the same obiter dictum or jeer every time I see my friends. As if we don't see each other that often. But I can't blame them. That's the reality I have to face and eventually accept.

Back in college when I was very skinny because of too much pressure and the occasional skipping of meals, I envied some of my classmates and schoolmates who were chubby. BTW, the reason why I had to skip meals was not because of dieting or being too preoccupied with a lot of things, but of being so spendthrift, leaving nothing for the rainy days. Pathetic me. 

Those were the days. 

And it has been almost 10 years now that I've been consistently gaining at least 2 kilos a year. Do the math and be surprised. 

Gone are the days when I could effortlessly use my feet to touch my then fuller hair. Yes, I was sort of a contortionist. LOL! But now, even the simplest things like putting on my socks, tying my shoelaces or trimming my toe nails are literally no picnic at all.  

Mind you, I feel bad about myself once in a while, especially when I see people my age with a body to die for. And then I start to imagine...a bald man with the physique of a swimmer. It's so phantasmagorical! Wake up bitch! LOL.

Then dieting sometimes crosses my insane mind. 

No rice for dinner for a week...more rice a week after even during snacks. Wattapak!

Plus frequent boozing around with some friends with oily food on the side...it's like counting my days to the grave. Well bad habits are indeed easier to fabricate than good ones because they are quite agreeable to our lazy and selfish nature. 

"Ang hirap!", deep sigh***